Last week I celebrated my first mothers day. It felt strange and wonderful! Little Lily Belle gave me flowers, a teddy, a 'super mum' badge, a number one mum certificate and lots of cuddles! It was a lovely, quiet day at home as a little family & I enjoyed every minute!
I have been a mum now for 2 and a half weeks. It is amazing. It doesn't quite feel real yet that this perfect little girl is mine. I love her more than I can explain! I could literally spend all day staring at her beautiful little face. And she is already growing & changing so fast, she's going to be grown up and leaving home before I know it. I am going to try and make the most of every second I have with her.
Being a mummy feels so right. Even though Lily wasn't planned, I feel like this is what I am meant to do. I am here to be a mummy to this little girl, and nothing I have done before has felt more 'me'. I feel like I've been waiting for Lily's arrival my whole life.
I think, when I was pregnant, I imagined Lily to be little version of me with a few of her daddy's features. But Lily is Lily! I dont know how to explain it. She is a completely new, individual person, with mummy's lips and daddy's eyes. I think that has suprised me the most, and scared me the most. She isn't what I expected, and she isn't just a small me, she is a person that I have to look after and raise, and that terrifies me and excites me. I can't wait to watch her grow and learn more about her, and hope I can do a good job at helping her develop and keeping her happy.
I know this post is rather soppy, and may not even make much sense, but these are my thoughts as a new mum. I want to have them here to look back on and remember these first few weeks, because they are going so fast!
x ♥
this is so gorgeous! you will be the best mum I'm sure of it. your love for your daughter is overwhelming and I hope to one day have my own child and love him/her unconditionally. I wish you all the best in the lives of your growing family
ReplyDeleteyou going to be a wonderful mum! You are so sweet and everything you post about seems to be magic! Best of luck and the warmest of wishes xx
ReplyDeleteyour post isn't soppy !!! it is full of sensitivity, gentleness and love that already show that you're a perfect mom! Your post is very touching. I love coming to read your messages
ReplyDeleteI wish you all the best for your lovely familly :)
Thank you ^^
ReplyDeleteI hope you will have a nice Easter too; The first one with your wonderful daughter! That's so cute ;)
ps : Lily Belle Rose is the most beautiful baby I never seen, you're so lucky
XO
beautifully written.. You are very wise in that you see in the Lily individual person, not just a small child. She is so perfect. You also look beautiful! (forgive my English)
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