Last week I celebrated my first mothers day. It felt strange and wonderful! Little Lily Belle gave me flowers, a teddy, a 'super mum' badge, a number one mum certificate and lots of cuddles! It was a lovely, quiet day at home as a little family & I enjoyed every minute!
I have been a mum now for 2 and a half weeks. It is amazing. It doesn't quite feel real yet that this perfect little girl is mine. I love her more than I can explain! I could literally spend all day staring at her beautiful little face. And she is already growing & changing so fast, she's going to be grown up and leaving home before I know it. I am going to try and make the most of every second I have with her.
Being a mummy feels so right. Even though Lily wasn't planned, I feel like this is what I am meant to do. I am here to be a mummy to this little girl, and nothing I have done before has felt more 'me'. I feel like I've been waiting for Lily's arrival my whole life.
I think, when I was pregnant, I imagined Lily to be little version of me with a few of her daddy's features. But Lily is Lily! I dont know how to explain it. She is a completely new, individual person, with mummy's lips and daddy's eyes. I think that has suprised me the most, and scared me the most. She isn't what I expected, and she isn't just a small me, she is a person that I have to look after and raise, and that terrifies me and excites me. I can't wait to watch her grow and learn more about her, and hope I can do a good job at helping her develop and keeping her happy.
I know this post is rather soppy, and may not even make much sense, but these are my thoughts as a new mum. I want to have them here to look back on and remember these first few weeks, because they are going so fast!