sleepy eyes and candle light

I wish for a pensive, just like Dumbledores. My mind is ever so full. I wish to take my ivory wand and remove all of  my silvery thoughts and dreams and ideas and memories and keep each one in its own little vial. And then I could organise them and label them and use the pensieve to step into them, whenever i wished.

instead i will tap tap at the keyboard so they can spill out onto into this little world, and hopefully make sense to all of you dears.

I have been working and working and working ever such a lot. In the morning i go to my studio and try to make some of my art, or i dash to the library and learn about wonderful artists who inspire and enchant.

And in the evenings i cook for my and my dearest, all sorts of meals from my recipe books. i adore cooking. 

And then as the clock goes tick tock ad strikes the time i should really snuggle down under the covers with warm, sweet milk and a lovely book... off i dash to work. It is rather horrible that i must go at this time. out into the dark. but i must earn pennies.

at work i feel like a cinderella of sorts, except instead of ugly stepsisters i have to wait on students. students who grow sillier and louder with each drink. i have to make drinks, and serve food, and collect the glasses, and collect the plates, and wash it all up, and clean the tables, and sweep the floors, and then make drinks, and serve food, and collect the glasses, and collect the plates....

over and over...

round and round in circles....

midnight comes and goes. and i am still rushing around and around.

and i must continue rushing until the early hours of the morning, when my dearest comes to collect me, offering chocolate and tea for comfort. 

I feel as though i am in a half sleep a lot of the time at the moment. my mind wanders into dreams more than usual, my legs are tired, my eyes weary. i can feel my eyelids wishing to close, growing heavier and heavier.

but in stolen moments, in in between dinner and work, before sleep comes, in the few hours i may have free, I have been exploring charity shops where i found the most wonderful handmade doll, make of wood and buttons and wool and lace. her name is Dolly. with her i also bought a little light, for a dolls ceiling. it is teeny tiny. perfect for her. I also found a jumper, knitted and thick and warm the colour of snow. and a lovely scarf as the weather grows cooler, dusty pale pink and perfect.

and i have visited the museum and my favourite room in the whole place. full of woodland creatures and colouring in pages and big trees you can climb inside and sit on blankets and cushions, and draw and read. There are deer and squirrels and owls and mice and foxes and moths and butterflies and beetles and all types of birds. i adore it ever such a lot.

i have finished reading the little white horse. my goodness!!!! it is such a magical and enchanting book. i do wish ever so hard i could visit moonacre, and maybe have a little white horse of my very own. and a teeny room with a ceiling of stars. i wish wish.

i found a little white horse. a little white horse with pink glitter in a shop. she was beautiful. but upon opening my pink purse i discovered it to only have 3 coins inside. the little white horse was many many more. i had to leave her behind, which made my heart very sad indeed.

i have been wearing jumpers that belonged to my mother that look like the night sky. I have been lighting candles that make the house smell of woodlands and winder and magic. i have been having snuggles and giggles with my David and my Poppy.

and this weekend i will climb aboard the hogwarts express, and it will take me home to family, to celebrate my little sisters birthday. and i can have a teeny break from work work work.  

I hope you are all smiling and happy. Thank you so very much for your kind words. I send you magic and stars and warm milk with honey and hearts made of paper. I adore you all.

Goodnight dears

x ♥

p.s: i have been tagged by the lovely susan, thank you dearest!!! i will do it very very soon!

stardust and suprises!!

i am ever so ever so ever so sorrry for the ever so ever so ever so long time between posting yet again!!!! but everything since starting work again at uni has been absolute complete madness, completely and utterly busy. busy busy busy. but rather wonderful!!! no more sadness and tears, but smiles and giggles. all of you lovelies helped ever so much with your kind words and beautiful posts
thank you ♥

the last few weeks here back at uni have been filled with new projects, new ideas, group work, catch ups over hot chocolate, many phone calls home, whisper mail, smiles, giggles, cuddles, fairy lights, pretend candles, film watching, dancing around and around in my room


oh i did not show you the christmas gift i gave to my love yet, silly silliness. it was not much at all. a collage of pictures and lovely heart warming times. smiles and loveliness. cut out hearts and little i love you doodles. handmade silver frame. all on cardboard, from the box our squeaky shooping trolley came in, that makes us giggle ever such a lot. so very little money i had, there was not much i could do. but it made him smile, and it is up in his room.

the first few days being here before work started were filled with teeny treats. we watched our films, snuggled up. blueberries and tea. chocolate mousse. more tea. ever such a lot of it. pink milk. chocolate milk. we went out with friends also. we all went out for dinner. it was quite wonderful and giggley.


then i was back. i was making and doing and learning, finding out all i must do before summer. which is a lot. more than i expected. i must put on a group exhibition ever so soon and prepare for another in april. oh my goodness so much work. and essays to be done also. ever so much writing to be done. but i will enjoy it, as it is what i love. creating and drawing and sewing and making. i was finding it ever so hard to find inspiration to start. i did not know what i should do. i do not have feedback from before christmas yet either. i have brought a glittery notebook, however, with a very special purpose. shhh. whispers and magic and a moon best friend. our adventures will go in there. ever so carefully. rosie and lottie.

i put something together one evening last week which made me smile at the silliness i had done. such silliness. and i spilt the glitter, oh dear, glitter everywhere. but my desk looks ever so pretty and magical, i am yet to clear it away. my new little friend, an owl. a funny owl. a glittery owl. a silly owl that spilled from my mind. just something to make me giggle.


oh and my dears now for the most exciting part of my time at uni so far. the cheeriest most wonderfullest and happiest of them all. oh my goodness. not one, not two, but three magical packages arrived for me!!! it was simply amazing. how i adore recieving post. and what special packages they were also!!!
the first two were from my godmother. late christmas gifts. the first was a book by one of my favourite authors, elizabeth elgin. she writes so beautifully, her books are enchanting, and full of romance and wonder. this book was called 'ill bring you buttercups' and i love it so very much. and the paper it was wrapped up in made me ever so excited also. on the back was a beautiful floral pattern, so delicate and pretty, so i used it to cover a new notebook, as i could not throw it away!!!

the second from my wonderful godmother was beatrix potters journal. oh my goodness, it is such a magical book!!!with many secrets and flaps and folds and suprises. and such beauty and treasures. it is truely amazing.


the third package was ever so ever so special i cannot tell you. it has made me smile and grin and giggle ever ever since. it was from my wonderful wonderful moon best friend, the ever so special one, little lottie, lovely angel. such treasures she sent. all wrapped up and hidden in so much glitter you never did see!! i think i shall sparkle always. it covered every inch of myself and my bedroom and made me giggle ever such a lot. she sent secret notes, a darling little book full of wonderfullness and wonders and magic. lots of teeny little suprises. delicate drawings. the teeniest little book and note which was ever so adorable, from the equally adorable tilly~rose. who also sent me a strawberry drop. such cuteness!!! stars and stars and stars. and amoungst the magic there was a tiny worry doll, so i shant worry anymore. and it has worked. i have been ever so happy!!! and a charlie and lola plaster, just in case. and a charlie and lola dvd!!!! she is the sweetest and kindest and wonderfullest moon best friend in the whole entire world!!! i curled up in bed last night to watch the cute dvd, with teeny giggles and smiles. i feel ever so lucky. and i am, to recieve such magic. i am i am. the glitter i could collect, that had not stuck itself to my hands, clothes, cheeks, eyes, hair and bed, was placed in my fairy mail jar, with my hundreds of stars. a jar of smiles and magic.


such wonders.

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oh oh oh!!! while i was away i recieved a gift from the ever so lovely anywhere i lay my head thank you dearest!!


the beauties i adore and choose to pass it on to are:

my favouritest lovely little angel lottie

the wonderful and creative end of march

the lovely and inspirational emily


oh my dearest lovelies who are ever so ever so special, i really honestly will try my absolute hardest to blog much more often. forgive me for the madness. you all fill me with smiles!! i hope all your worlds are filled with the loveliest prettiest things and the sweetest dreams, and millions of sparkley smiles

x ♥